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�Yesterday I recieved a note from an old friend. We were friends all through Middle School when she moved here,but then it all seemed to change within these last two years. In our Junior year we were still hanging out an just not talking at school. Sadly now that we are seniors,she doesn't talk to me at all. Her boyfriend doesn't like her talking to me so she doesn't want to cause a fight with him by talking to me.

You see yesterday she gave me a note at the end of the day telling me that she wanted to be my friend, but she didn't want anyone to know about it. She kept telling me her boyfriend would get mad about it. That and we don't hang with the same group of friends anymore so she doesn't want her group or my group to know that we are talking. I am not allowed to text her unless we are in school otherwise I have to write her notes and talk to her that way.

I don't know how to respond to this at all. I mean we use to be good friends,but now that she has a boyfriend, she seems to good for me. That and her new group she hangs with hates me with a passion and I don't like them either. They just think they are better than the rest and they use to be some of my friends before we all hit high school.

I don't know if I should just go along with this and just stick to texting during school and writing notes back in forth or just give up. I don't feel like she can truely want to be my friend if she wants to hide our friendship. Please if anyone can give me some advice on this. If she makes a good point and I should just try and make this work or just stick with my gut and not give a care about it. Please if you could give me some advice let me know.

Thanks!

� wow what do you do when your in a relationship and you dont know what to do anymore??� i am curently in a realationship and we want to take it to the next level and get married...i dont know if im ready... things just never go as planned and i dont want to make a mistake and later on down the road have things go wrong... i am completely stressed and i have no idea what to do...

i am in love� him, but i dont know if i can make the comitment to only spend my life with him... i want to make sure he is the true one first before i make that decision... i hate not knowing..�

all we do is fight about what is going on between us and its mostly my fault cuz i keep bringing up my insicuruties.... i want to know what to do and i hope i can make theright decision!!

" When life gives you lemons, squirt them in someone's eye."

" When life gives you lemons, make grape juice, and watch the world wonder how you did it."

I still have more but can't remember them all. ~_~'

It was supposed to be the best day of the week today. i go home and i celebrate mom's birthday. then.. that ugly person was there. and she WRECKED EVERYTHING. Yes.. her name is A.H. What the hell is wrong with her? Certainly now i see what's wrong with her. no wonder everyone who knew her before jr high hated her so fucking much. cuz she was such a bitch.,

Seriously. Does making other people feel bad actually make her feel better? it disgusts me. oh wth .

not getting her a present. i dont want her in my life. it lowers my self esteem.. it makes me angry. it makes me feel bad. now all i gotta do is forget about her. leave it alone. and move on . YEA.

love blah bee

Got up late today. I let the alarm ring a bunch of times. Yesterday, I took too long to sleep and I paid for it� by waking up really late. Anyway, after my regular morning cup o joe, I didn't have time for breakfast and I didn't drink much water either. Its 2:15pm now and I'm only drinking my first glass of water. L&L BBQ chicken for lunch, tho. That was yummy. We'll see how the lack of water affects my swim tonight.�

Well, I can't find out whether the lack of water was going to affect my swim. I did't take my bikini bottom to the gym so no swimming. Did some Christmas shopping instead. So its spaghetti for dinner and hopefully sleep early. Have to make a delivery in Gardena tomorrow so I won't be riding to work tomorrow. Mayber Thursday. Also, Cory's gig at the Marmiton was canned cause the restaurant closed down. What a drag. Thats gotta smart.

��������� Okay so my Voyager broke..Like a long time ago. And I've been living with it. It's just my inside screen. So a few days ago my Dad called it in� to get another one. Well they said it would definantly going to be here today or we get our money back. Well the lady on the phone said she was gonna send me an even better phone. No charge. So I was like SWEET! But what in hell is better than the Voyager ( minus the iPhone) ??? So I'm flipping out waiting for the stupid Fed Ex to get here!! AGGGGH!